ac·knowl·edge

 You are part of the solution or remain the problem!

acknowledge 

you have a choice 

acknowledge

You play a big part in who you surround yourself with, good people, bad people, smart people, stupid people!

acknowledge and accept your part in everything you do!

As I write this,  I’m realizing (ex-husband) chose to let go of our children, I chose to cling on to them, I had no choice? or did I ? only they can answer if I was really there or not….Good or bad they had no choice in the hand they were dealt.

Clinging is not good for them or for myself, so from here on out,

I choose to be a Mother who will not annoy her children!

I will only Mother with love, not dollars,  I will not give unwanted advise, or show up when not invited, or call when there really is not much to talk about!  I will leave you to your choices and pray that God have mercy on your souls and protect you always.

As for grand-children I will cuddle, love, kiss and babysit when asked. I will always be there too.  Grand children will be raised by there parents and I will keep my thoughts to myself . You know what they say the good thing about being a grandparent is that when you get to enjoy them. Thats what I intend to do, if i’m allowed too. You determine my relationship with my grandchildren.

One more thing ” I will always be there for my kids, I will be a (safety net) no matter what!

I choose to be at peace with my children, and I hope I never read a post “my mother is so annoying!! because I could write back and say something mean , God forgive me!  

I have been told to be more assertive, I have been told that I am Low Key, I have been called the B word, C word and crazy! Who the hell are you? Supervisor, boss from hell, boyfriend, co-worker who threatened to hit me, and crazy from almost everyone! I’m just a misunderstood Introvert!

whiteelephantintheroom:

You tend to work late?

Get unapologetically drunk with your girlfriends twice a month?

Hate “checking in” with anyone?

Like your Sunday afternoons all to yourself?

Yeah.

Me too.

Then I started dating someone who lives that script to the letter:

He works ‘til 1am on Friday…

jerrybrito:

Myth #1 – Introverts don’t like to talk.
This is not true. Introverts just don’t talk unless they have something to say. They hate small talk. Get an introvert talking about something they are interested in, and they won’t shut up for days.

Myth #2 – Introverts are shy.
Shyness has nothing to…

forgive

realize your part

move on

forgive

because it was love after all

forgive

because one more day

and you would go out of your mind

forgive

you need a time out

forgive and move on………relief

sleep

breathe in breathe out

smile

cry

forgive

and cry some more……..

I am so much more than you or I think….I am so much more that you can not bear to know. When I finally escape this life, I will finally be all that there is to be…I am so much more than you think, yes you too are so much more……

Course of action that produce the con·se·quence you are able to accept responsibly. Freewill at what cost, you always give up something to gain something, the trick is knowing the value of what your giving up to gain what might not be worth nothing at all. Use your third eye to see pass the smokescreen, see the consequence before you decide your course of action. To Be or not to be ……

Freewill where has it gotten you?

Today, Veterans day was just like any other day except one person changed the mood at work, for the better.

I was taking my lunch break when Matt came in and announced that one of the Truck drivers had bought pizza and soda for everyone, his daughter just gave birth to twin girls. Wow how great is that I thought here is this man so happy and generous to share his happiness with the Company. What a way to show how grateful and proud he was. I immediately wanted to show my appreciation that I went to my computer and looked for a card that I could print and sign to give to him. When I took the card to dispatch I expected to see the truck driver with the other co workers, but he was not there. I asked Matt where is the proud grandpa? Matt said he’s out making deliveries. Oh I thought he brought the pizza and soda, No Matt said “his son brought the pizza and soda”. I showed the card to Matt and he said “aww man George would love it make sure you give it to him on Monday” I said I will. I went back to my cubicle and pinned the card on my board. Monday I plan on presenting to him 2 baby beanies, (need to go shopping, what funn). 

Life is amazing! Just yesterday my co-worker was having a difficult time because it was the anniversary of her baby’s passing. Then today a Co-worker shared his blessing! I thought I wonder if this was difficult for her to see us so happy for the surprise and news of the birth of twin girls. Yes it probably was and I so much wanted to tell her about a show I watched where Gary Zukav is explaining to a Mother who lost her child, the gift she was allowed to share.  It helped other mothers and I think if Crystal watched this she would be better for it.

Monday I will have the gift for the twins and a gift for Crystal.

Today a co-worker was having a hard time keeping her cool.  Her nature is to complain out loud. We all have are quirks and we are pretty much understanding of them. Sometimes when the stress level is high we can get on each others last nerve. Today I almost snapped at my co-worker, I wanted to say hey I’m feeling your tension could you take a break and get a hold of yourself. She never takes a break from her desk, I wish she would. I think if she were to get away from her work she would relieve some tension. As I was walking pass her cubicle I noticed a picture of a newborn on her monitor. I asked her who the baby was and she started to tear up, she said it was her baby and I said I thought you didn’t have children and she said I don’t. She looked straight into my eyes and then said it was 24 years ago from today and that this year she was having a difficult time. I myself have been dealing with grief, so I understood what she needed. I could of just walked away but I said hey I know what you need, you need a hug. So I hugged her hard. So as the work day came to an end she my co-worker settled down. I am so glad that I did not snap and I that I did not walk away. I prayed for her and I wanted to tell her you have some grieving to do…..I do too.